Im not going 2 4get bout her...

haiz..
every1 asked me 2 give up...
ya...
i noe...
but i cant make it lo..
she is ad in my heart...
i dun mind 2 wait 4 her...
but i sked...
cos i noe after sometimes...
she is still in my heart de...
but me??
i think im slowly slowly 4get by her de...
i dun wan all tat happen...
but if i keep findin her..
i sked i wil make her more frustrated de...
how??
can any1 tel me how ma?

Can i B Ur HeRo?

would u smile if i tel something funny..
would u cry if i did something 4 u..
would u lie on me wen u r not happy..
let me b ur hero can ma?
if i die now...
wat u wil do de next...
wil u b haapy owis...
wil u find another guy tat treat u beta den me?
but..
i can b ur hero baby...
i can help u 2 carry ur stuff everytime...
just like de train station tat time...
i can kiss away ur pain...
i oso wil wait 4 u 2 come bak...
im owis here 2 standby 4 u de...
just tat im worry time wil wash me away from ur heart...
u r my everything now...
i've lost my mind vtout u...
i dun mind gettin hurt from u...
cos i love u...
i just wanna hold u...
i wil hold u tide de if u come bak..
i just wanna u 2 come bak 2 me...
come bak 2 me n let me take good care of u...
can ma???

GiviN Up~

haiz...
my body n heart day by day gettin weaker...
i guess im going 2 give up everything...
im going 2 give up my life n my love...
cos 2day..
i went 2 c a doctor...
doctor said if in 3 days time..
i stil ill...
den i got dengue ad...
my life oso i cant control nicely...
how m i suppose 2 hav the rite 2 chase my beloved again...
how m i suppose 2 take good care of her again?
haiz...
de onli things tat i most worried is her...
i sked if i leave ad...
den no1 wil protect her owis...
n i oso sked tat she wil let ppl hurt or cheat...
"juh...
im so sorry tat i hurt u so much...
i reali noe wat i did was wrong last time..
if im going 2 another place..
den i hope tat u wil be happy owis n get a guy tat u love...
i noe tat u can find a guy tat treat u beta den me de...
juh...
if u wan u can 4get bout me de...
wen u get into trouble...
den find some1 2 help k...
if u feel like tellin some1 ur heart's problem..
u can look at de moon n tel de..
i hope tat i can hear from far away...
juh...
i wil owis remember bout u de...
u r de 1 who i love most in my life...
i wil bless n wish u all de time de...
remember 2 bcareful n b happy owis k...
i love u juh.."

;*)

ehe...
im so happy 2day..
i heard de 3 words b4 i come 2 inti...
nites juh..
cover blanket n slep tide ok...

WaitInG~

I wil wait 4 her de..
but seem tat jiabg n juh's love like no more hope ad..
but i doesn't matter how long or how less chance 2 b v her again...
i stil wil try my best 2 wait 4 her..
wait her til de day she dun nid me anymore de..
or til de day i had no more energy 2 live on de...
juh..
i wil show u tat i had change n i wil miss u every single minutes de...
i noe is hard 4 u 2 4give me..
but i just wanna 2 say i love u...
time wil show everything 2 u de...
but can u show me tat good things wil happen to those who wait??
i noe tat u wil not wanna 2 couple now..
n i wil wait til tat day u wanna come bak de...
i dun mind how long u nid me 2 wait but...
im just affraid tat u dun love me anymore onli...

LiFe Is BeAuTiFuL~

Life is beautiful..

but is complicated..

haiz...

but i wil wait 4 her de...

no matter how...

nothing wil change my heart 4 her de...

wen she come bak 2 my arms...

wen she come bak 2 me..

i wil try 2 b her hero..

tat hero tat she wan...

i wil not try 2 hurt her anymore de...

i wil onli make her happy..

wil onli protect her wen she is in trouble..

i swear tat wat i said is de truth...

i wil stand where i r de..

n wait 4 her...

hOpE~

2moro going 2 hav my mpw presentation...

n i not reali ready yet..

haiz..

i reali hope tat she wil accept me bak b4 tat n b there while i presentin....

hope tat she is givin me support...

if i reali saw her 2moro...

means tat she accept me bak...

i reali love her much..

no matter wat oso wil not change my feelin 2wards her de..

i wil wait 4 de answer de...

imma a bad guy~

i guess..

im reali not de 1 4 my love 1...

haiz...

im tryin my best ad...

but...

i stil cant make her happy owis last time...

haiz...

im reali a bad guy...

i not suit her at all...

she is so wonderful...

but yet..

im a stupid idiot bad guy...

make her away ad...

i reali learn a lesson...

last time...

i owis tok non sense..

make her sad n hurt...

but everytime i never wanna hurt her de...

i just simply tok something 2 over come my feelin...

i just dono y..

dono y...

y owis wil scold at her...

scold her til make her leave me ad...

after tat argue...

after she leave me...

den onli i realise i love her tis much..

i miss her much...

i hope i stil can hold her hand again..

n walk til de end of my life..

aikss...

if she give me 1 more last chance...

i wil even more love her...

even more care bout her...

i wil not scold her anymore...

i wil owis share my feelin 2wards her ad de...

haiz...

no matter how...

i wil not love any others ad...

 i onli hope tat she wil b happy owis...

AgaiN a probleM...

Aikss...

i reali very tired of my life ad...

y things get more n more frustrated 1??

i dono y...

y???

aikss.....

wat im in some1's heart?

Low In CasH~

Haiz...

im reali frustrated now adays...

things keep happen..

continueous b4 i solve it...

tuesday nite...

i bang my car..

it reali seriously damage..

but...

tat time..

i got no more pain feelin in my heart ad...

i onli worried bout de repair money onli...

haiz...

i lend some from my frens...

some from my savin...

finally..

i got enof 1k 2 fix my car...

in comin weeks i nid 2 e more bread n more instant noodles ad...

aikss...

later sure wil drop lots of hair ad de..

but nvm la...

i oso dun feel like findin others ad..

time wil shows everything de...

Pretending~

2day...

life seem more easy 4 me ad..

things more smooth wen i face it happily...

but...

actuali im pretendin...

cos...

i stil reali miss her much..

i stil hope 2 noe wat she is doing...

wat time she going 2 slep n everything bout her..

i dono wat else i can do...

but i must make myself more happy so tat my life wont go worst...

haiz...

i reali veri tired now...

not onli physical but spiritual oso tired..

hope tat things goes on beta..

wish her can score well in her exam...

lost of direction..

so many things happen last few week...

i reali dono wat can i do ad...

im stuck around here...

i hope tat things will beta 4 her...

hope tat she wil more happy rite now...

hope tat she wil get a beta result in all de sub in final exam...

get a brighter road next time..

i guess...

im not de guy tat can give her a bright road...

wat i can do de is 2 support her now...

b v her wen she nid me..

i dono she wil find me wen she not happy or lost anot..

but i reali hope tat now...

cos i dono wat else i can do 4 her ad...

haiz..

i feel so guilty now..

cos i cant b v her wen she is frustrated...

cant b v her n support her...

wish her wil more happy n get well in her life...

AiKsS....

y is all tis happen...

haiz..

room...

god damn...

i din bring my key out 2day..

i din...

my roommate oso...

but he lock de door ad..

both of us got no key...

after my test..

i feel de most bad n alone 4 2day..

last time...

i wil wait 4 my ex gf if i dun hav a key...

wait til her class finish...

den v can go e or c her...

tat was normally i do..

but..

tis afternoon...

i got no key..

i reali dono how...

2 do...

i got nothing 2 wait...

i got no1 2..
i got no1 teman me...

i got reali got nothing...
 aikss...

luck..

de door was break by me n frens after 1hour tryin...

haiz...

tat time i was damn tired 2..

all tis time...

my life reali going down hill...

i noe..

but i din tel my ex gf...

i tot not tellin her will let her feel beta...

n she told me tat she wil not come bak 2 me anymore yesterday..

haiz...

i reali hate myself....

reali...

i got nothing now...

reali nothing..

even i tot my ex gf will b my wife..

i treat her tat 2..

sometimes..

i reali not happy...

maybe bcos of tat...

i moody n argue v her...

n now..

she choose 2 leave me..

im sorry 2 her..

but..

all tis reali make me not happy owis..

i going 2 leave her...

cos her ad said tat she wil not happy wen she come bak 2 me...

i cant do anything 4 her ad other den wait n leave her now..

hope tat she will happy den...

i wil wish n pray 4 her de..

1st of june...

2day...

2day was 1st of june..

i dono y...

but ad pass..

every 1st of a month...

suppose 2 b my aniversary v my ex-gf...

every month i oso got go n count...

n celebrate...

i guess...

i got no more chance 2 do it ad..

nvm...

cos she oso 4get me ad...

she oso no nid me ad..

she said tat she can b independent...

aikss..

no nid me ad...

no nid me 2 protect her ad...

no nid me take care her ad..

haiz...

like now..

i guess she ad 4get bout all tat ad...

Haiz...

haiz...

stil again haiz..

i dono last time wat i did 2 my gf was wat 2 her...

dono tat whether she got love me b4 anot...

i dono..

i reali dono...

now i choose 2 trust tat she loved me b4...

i...

i feel hurt..

reali hurt..

my heart is pain now..

n my soul is weak now..

how long v been 2gather can so easily 4get by her...

can so easy 2 give up..

now i dono wat cal love..

love not say tat no matter wat..

no matter wat happen v must face 2gather de meh??

love not like tis de meh??

but y..

y...

got a lil argue...

den nid 2 break...

y love now ad like tis de??

tis period...

i found tat im lost ad...

i guess...

many of us oso like tat de..

i guess lots of ppl was lost in love ad...

haiz..

tis century..

love b like easy come even more easy 2 go ad..

y???

love is a promise wat...

once v love de ppl...

v must...

v reali must owis share...

owis face prob 2gather de..

haiz.......

de world had change..

but i guess..

i wont b change so easily 2wards love....

wat i think..

wat i will do 2wards love..

i wil do owis de..