ohya...
maybe some of de ppl said tat i owis make my own assumption....
n simple think bout negative side...
ya, maybe i do...
but on tis monent on...
i wont n din simply make my own assumption ad....
bcos i tel myself not 2 do it anymore 4 her...
i noe tat if i continue doin it...
i will make myself not happy...
n even make her sad n angry...

im veri confuse.....

if i can make a time machine...

i wil choose 2 go bak 2 last time...

bcos there is lots of sweet memory v her..

or maybe choose 2 not couple v her tat time n couple v her later...

bcos tat time v r stil not enof mature....

i dono 2 control my feelings...

n i hurt her a lot.....

haiz.....

just now...
i feed my dogs...
after feedin...
i ask my bro nid my help anot...
n he said no nid...
he wil continue cuttin de grass 2moro...
den i went n bathe...
half way..
my mum called me...
she said tat my dad veri angry...
i asked y...
n she said ur dad scoldin u din help ur bro...
den i quickly went downstairs....
n my dad start scoldin me...
walau...
i xplain tat i upstairs bathe n study wor...
but he stil scoldin..
ish...
i noe..
i noe tat i din help de house much...
but im not reali happy tis few days...
n oso got final soon...
tats y keep stayin in my room...
never mind...
im owis on my own de...
nobody will care of me now ad....

FiNAL FiNaL FiNaL....

final exam is comin...

ish...

but i reali cant concentrate on my studies...

haiz...

many ppl may say tat im not stable n mature...

but i guess they were wrong...

cos...

diff ppl have their own important things 4 them...

n now...

i almost loose away my most important ppl in my life..

all these time...

im owis moody..

im owis sad...

im owis frustrared...

but im tryin 2 recover asap de...

i will try 2 study hard...

but i wil oso never 4get bout her..

she is de most special 1 4 me...

without her...

my life wil b dull...

borin n lifeless...

may v fix all de problem 2gather?

i dun wanna escape or run away from our problem....

What my heart wants 2 say~

juh...
i wanna tel u tat..
tis few days...
i post something tat annoy u much on fb...
im sorry juh...
i did mean all tat de..
just bcos im moody n going crazy due of missin u...
juh...
i dun mind gettin hurt or argue v u...
cos...
de 1 is u..
everytime..
after a short duration..
i ad 4get bout all tat de..
n happy bak veri fast de...
ya...
maybe...
v owis argue..
i oso tel something tat hurt u...
hurt u much...
but all de while..
i din mean it from my heart de...
im sorry juh...

My LiFe~

In my life...
i learn how 2 love...
i learn how 2 smile...
i learn how 2 b strong...
i learn how 2 sing...
i learn how 2 play guitar...
i learn how 2 workhard...
i learn wat called happy...
i learn wat called love...
n i found the 1 who i love..
the 1 tat i love is u Juh~
u r de 1 n onli 1...
tat can make learn all tat...
i love u...

im sad~

haiz...
i reali dono wat 2 do...
i just onli hope tat she will happy owis...
should i leave her?
if she asked me 2 stay n wait 4 her...
i wil wait 4 her til de day i die de...
i can give all my heart 2 u...
n i wont lie 2 u...
just like just now...
i told u tat i havin class til 4...
i reali dun wanna c u sad n angry anymore juh...
i love u....

JuH~

juh...
i just now read ur old blog...
i feel so sweet n happy...
but after few second i feel sad...
bcos i reali miss all de time tat had been v u...
last time u wil asked me not 2 siu hei in ur blog de...
aikss...
now...
i dono there is another chance anot...
but i can wait 4 u de....

FruStRateD~

haiz...
final exam is around de corner...
n my test 2 result was sucks....
OmG!!!
i gona study 6 subjs in a week...
can i do it??
hah!!!
i dun think so i can...
but i wil try my best de...
cos...
i wanna let her mum not so worry bout her daughter wil hav a bad lifestyle v me next time...
haiz....
i reali veri tired now...
not onli studies...
finance...
but oso my love 1...
i now adays...
dun y wil miss her til crazy de...
sometimes...
i wil moody bcos of miss her...
i cant xplain y...
but all tis time...
i reali can almost control my feelings ad...
maybe time make me learn....
im worried bout her owis 2...
worried bout izit she is safe owis...
n oso worried bout our relation...
its kinda complicated now....
i can wait 4 her no matter how long...
but...
im afraid of tis relation wil continue so complicated...
or keep going down hill...
maybe i think 2 much ad...

SoMeTimEz~

sometimes....
i reali dono wat 2 chat v her...
izit bcos v got no more topic ad?
or she is reali busy?
or those things tat i wanna tel her ad filtered onli v got no more topics?
i reali hope tat v hav more topic 2 chat....
maybe now adays....
i make her feel tired n make her feel bored of me ad...
but every single message she sent me...
i wil try my best 2 reply her asap...
everyday n nite...
i hope 2 c her...
hope tat can b v her even just awhile...
i ad will feel beta de...
nite time...
i feel like listenin her voice b4 i slep...
but i guess she is veri tired so i din cal her...
even dinner...
i seriously hope tat can dinner v her...
but i owis dun dare 2 asked her out....
cos i feel tat she feel more hapi dinner v her frens....
can dinner v ppl who i loved n care...
i feel veri hapi de...
but she owis said tat i e v my frens wil more hapi den e v her...
haiz...
i rather stay at my room n cook instant noodle den going out dinner v others...
but she dun trust me.....

JuH~

Juh..
i reali hope tat u wil happy owis...
i can onli tel u de is no matter how long oso i will wait 4 u de...















i miss all de time tat had been v u...

I'm so sorry~

Juh..

im so sorry bout yesterday nite...

bcos of me..

i make u get scold from ur mum...

bcos of me...

i make u late 4 de movie tat u love so much...

n i oso din noe tat i made u sad n cry so much 4 me...

i dono should i asked u out again next time anot...

but i hope tat there is another chance 2 hangout v u...

juh...

hope tat i bring u bit hapiness yesterday...

i just wanna c u smile again like last time...

i love u...

Nobody WanT To C Us Togather...

From de 1st day v break up...

i guess i ad noe tat v r not turnin bak again...

but...

i dono y...

i stil miss n love her much...

til now...

i stil hope tat my love wil come bak 2 me...

haiz...

nvm...

i now not onli noe tat she dun feel like comin bak 2 me...

n oso her mum dun reali wan me get bak her...

just now...

i asked her out 4 movie...

n her mum scold her...

im so sorry juh...

tis song...

once in a life time...

there is onli 1 chance...

de chance tat v could meet again...

its a miracle...

so y dun u blif me..

i wont hurt u again...

v can face our problem...

on tis moment on...

n on tis moment in ur eyes was true so ever true...

i dint lie 2 u juh...

i'll love u 4ever...

i dint lie 2 u juh...

i'll love u 4ever..

i guess...

its 2 late n no more meaning ad...

=.="

many ppl asked me...

wat i can give her if i get her bak...

i dono how 2 answer...

ya...

maybe i cant give her anythin...

even bit of happiness oso i cant give it 2 her...

but i will try my best...

haiz...

juh...

u oso ask de same thing b4....

n oso tel me tat not worth de...

but...

juh i can tel u tat de is...

de day i 1st saw u...

i fall 4 u veri deep ad...

n de time tat i 1st couple v u juh...

i ad lock myself into u ad...

n de rule is i wil love u 4ever de...

i noe is hard 2 blif wat i said now...

but time can show u everythin de.....

juh...

i dono y...

tis few days...

i keep readin ur blog..

wen u din post anythin tat time....

i wil go bak 2 ur old profile 2 read ur old blog de...

i seriously dono y...

but i gettin used 2 it 2 read ur blog ad de...

juh..

i miss all de time tat been v u...

i love u much.... 

Hey JuH~

hey juh...
dun b upset...
take a sad song...
n make it beta..
pls dun afraid....
cos i wil owis by ur side de...
remember...
i not going 2 hurt u anymore...
n i wil make u happier..
hey juh...
i noe its hard 4 u 2 trust me again...
but i wil prove 2 u tat i wont hurt u again...
pls close ur eyes n trust me again...
everything going beta...
hey juh...
wat i said is de truth...
i wil onli make u more n more happy...
nothing is more hurtful den cant b v u juh..
nothing is more hurtful den c-ing u cry....
juh...
i dun wanna c u cry anymore...
i just can said de is...
i can wait 4 u de...
til now y u stil dun blif me wor...
i owis said tat dun wanna wait 4 u thru my mouth 2 u...
but...
in my heart...
im stil owis wanna wait 4 u...
owis feel like waitin 4 u...
juh...
i reali miss n love u much...

HaiZ~ i'm just an onion n a moon...

actually....
i plan 2 watch movie v juh de...
n v all those plan tat i planed 2 make her happy...
but i fail...
she rejected me ad...
maybe she dun feel like going v me...
maybe...
or maybe she got her own reason...
hope tat her mum wil not dislike me ba...
haiz...
wen i standin infront of the counter at de cinema...
i was so hapi but nervous...
but after de cal...
my feelings 360 degree change...
haiz...
nvm ba...
maybe im just like a moon...
onli turnin around her...
but she is my earth...
earth...
wil owis lookin 4 some1 beta...
n me...
tis moon...
no matter how oso cant reach de earth..
cant get her bak ad...
im just an onion...
not a jiang ad...
2 teman n make her hapi...
make her not so lonely til she found her another part..
i just onli hope tat she will hapi owis from now...
n i will try my best 2 take good care of her n make her hapi til she dun nid me anymore de...

HelpIn = HaPi = TiReD~

ehe...
finally de telematch is over...
yesterday...
i went bak sbn...
2 do n learn my stuff...
til 3something midnite...
gah..
den 4 oclock onli can fall aslep...
5.30a.m. wake up...
straight drive 2 inti...
4 de telematch...
although...
is tired....
but c those special student was enjoy n hapi...
my whole body not so tired anymore...

9am...

cos due to electric problem...

v started our event late...

after settle de electric problem...

i standin at samplin boot there fried my own company's (Double Snack) product- wedges n mini patties at
busy til onli can drink water....
after de event...
i gave half of my product 2 the skol..
4 those student 2 e...
there is 1 thing i makes me feel guilty now...
bcos...
i din reali get in touch 2 those special student...
maybe im busy fryin my product 2 sell...
maybe..
haiz...
im so sori...
overall..
this event is tired but...
i feel hapi oso...
reali...
thx 2 all ppl tat support us...

BaBy~

BaBy...
u noe tat i miss u...
u noe tat i love u...
but y dun u trust me 1 more time yor...
if u love me n i love u...
den y not givin each other another chance 2 proceed our love le?
i wont hurt u anymore de cos c-ing u cry makes me feel like dying..
n i wont hurt u anymore bcos i love u....
it seem tat v r couple...
but v r not...
haiz...
i feel like kissin u but i cant...
wat im in ur heart....
wat m i suppose 2 do wor?

Just The GaL~

she is sometimes cool 2 me...
but somtimes not...
i dono y...
but if other gals do it 2 me...
i wont even wanna find her de..
but...
she is de onli 1..
make me miss her much...
wen she ignore me..
i feel de world like no more life...
wat can i do 4 her?
2 make her more happy..
i ad try my best 2 teman her...
but...
it seems tat like just a fren...
or maybe a best fren...
but wat i wan is not onli tat...
haiz....
she is de gal tat i lookin for my life...
just can say de is i ad fall 4 her veri deep ad...
hey gal...
i wanna u b v me..
b mine...
i will not let u down anymore de if u come bak 2 me..
i will catch u wen u fall de...

Afraid~

i dono y..
tis few days i cant slep well..
cant slep easily...
but each time 4 or 5 oclock wil wake up again...
agrhh..
maybe of my wound..
maybe im sked of her wil leave me..
but...
neway...
stupid jiang u must slep well 2day..
cos 2moro got mpw final...
gah...
i hope 2 pass it...
chayo 2 myself...

JuH~

haiz...
juh...
im sorry...
cos...
i noe ur frustrated now...
i oso noe tat u r moody 2...
but i cant even make u happy bak..
haiz...
im sorry tat im so useless...
wat i can do now is dun find u..
cos i keep findin u wil make u even more frustrated de i noe...
hope tat u will happy bak soon...
juh..
i reali miss u now...
im sorry tat din fetch u 2 college..
i tot i can de...
but due juh promise ppl earlier i think...
im sorry...

JiAnG~

haiz..
actuali my wound is still painin now de..
i just dun wanna her 2 worried bout me while she hang out v her fren..
i dun wanna her 2 think bout anything of me wen she can enjoy....
cos i noe tat i make her feel sad n guilty so much these days...
i just onli hope tat she wil more happy now...
i noe tat if she think of me while hang out v her frens, she cant 100% enjoy de...
tat y i din reply her or find her ad...
juh..
actually im veri selfish de...
yesterday...
i din slep well...
tat y so late wake up...
i wake up oso bcos of my wound is painin tat time..
juh..
yesterday nite..
i dream bout u again..
haiz...
i dream bout u leavin me like tis til de day i died...
im so scared...
haiz....
i not onli hope tat u will happy owis..
but i oso wan u 2 come bak 2 me de...
i noe tat wil makes u feel sad n think of last time how i hurt u if u come bak 2 me...
but i reali wont do it anymore de...
i just wanna u b happy owis..
i wil respect ur decision de...
but i wil owis b there 4 u til i die de...

BeAuTiFuL~

erm...
u r so beautiful in my eyes..
but its not ur fault..
n it causes me crazy of u...
make me love u til owis jealous..
hurtin u owis...
im sorry...
but i stil love u no matter how...
asked me 2 give up..
can..
wen i die...
but i wil stop disturbin u ad de...
after 2moro everything gona 2 end i think..
haiz...
im afraid of tat time 2 come...
sorry..
im just sayin wat i feel..